Tuesday, December 16, 2014

Do You Know Where You're Going?

Do you sometimes wonder how you started out in one place
going in a certain direction,
or so you thought,
and ended up somewhere else entirely?
I don't think this happens to all of us.
But it certainly happens to many of us.
I've been in the 'people' business for many years.
And I can tell you some people really know their direction.
They make plans
and with G-d's help they get  there.
More or less.
I was never that kind of person.
I kind of wing it.
But as I get older
I wish
I was a planning kind of person.
Which would mean
you make choices
and stick with them.
You continue to make choices
to support your original choices
and that's how you get where you want to go.
Its not a foolproof plan
but I've seen it work.
When I create
I follow both concepts.
Sometimes I plan.
Like in this sweater I made for my son.
Wonderful patten.
HERRINGBONE CARDIGAN.
I had to follow every stitch.
And it was so worth it.


I added the hat and scarf.
How could I not?
Want to keep him warm.

He decided to share with his son!



Then I go to this craziness.
Trying to make some art.
Not exactly any rules for me here.
so I start with this:



Which is actually not bad.
But I couldn't leave well enough alone.
so I did more 'patchking'
and ended up with this.


Interesting.
But not exactly what I hoped for.
Oh well.
I can always try again.

And here is a cardigan I started ages ago.
Finally made something for myself.
Yarn was given to me by a dear friend.
Last Sunday I forced myself to figure out how I would bring some excitement to the design.
I hate leaving unfinished projects before I start a new one.
This was in a bag for at least six months.
I found this wonderful leftover piece of lace
and 5 hours later
voila!
So very happy with the result.




An example of no plan
that went right!
So there you have it.
Put one foot in front of the other
and
GO!
“My direction? Anywhere. Because one is always nearer by not keeping still.” 

Monday, October 27, 2014

I never got to go to Greece...

I never got to travel the world and collect stuff from thrift shops to remind me of everything....
I never got to go to art school...
I never got to become a personal trainer...
I never got to hike for a week all by myself...
I never got to go to a fashion show and sit next to Anna Wintour...
I never got to become a famous author...
(don't really want that, just want to write like one)
I never got to be on Shlichus...
I never got to take voice lessons...
I never got to be the one with a good memory...
I never got to be the girl who dyes her hair blue and gets away with it...
(doesn't mean I'm not frum, it just means I'm arsty!)
I never got to live in Manhattan and walk walk walk...
I never got to go to Greece..
Or Spain...
or Venice...
or the Grand Canyon...
I never got to take dance lessons...
or become a makeup artist...
I never got to go to a JLI retreat...
I never got to learn mosaics...
I never got to become a therapist...
(ok maybe that one I did. After all I'm a Sheitel-macher)
I never got to become an excellent quilter...
or a media artist
or a jewelry designer
or even a cake artist...
I never got to wander through used book stores...
I never got to have my own art/craft room where I could throw paint on the walls...
I never got to bike across America...
I never got to write a cookbook...
I never got to publish a Scrapbooking for Everyone by Faygie Fellig...
I never got to lock myself away and create for days on end...
I never got to 'choose' where what and why...
But what I did get was
beautiful children
who nurture me,
encourage me
and make every day significant in various meaningful ways..
eg.
They respond to my jokes
(lol, lmao, ma you crack me up)
push me to take care of myself
cheer me on when I undertake new projects.
They keep me up to date and relevant.
I know how to use and Iphone
navigate the computer
and watch Ted.com.
Seeing life through their eyes is all the adventure I need.
Ups, downs and arounds,
it's what Hashem chose for me.
and that makes it amazing.
 ......which brings me to
I'm working on something new.
I want to paint on a canvas.
It's a first for me.
Very intimidating.
No idea where to start.
But start I did.
We'll see where it takes me.
First draft...
Started with some paint


a few hours later I had this


'patchkied' around till I finished with this


Not done yet.
We'll see...
Maybe I'll add some of this


or a quote....
hmmm.....
or paint over the whole damn thing.(I sense frustration!)
IDK! 
but I'll keep you posted....


Art is the only way to run away without leaving home. Twyla Tharp








Tuesday, October 14, 2014

A hug from far...

There is no greater blessing than birthing a child.
When I got married I was young and naive.
I thought having children was a given.
What did I know about the world?
All I knew was my own little corner
in Crown Heights.
I had never even gone overseas until I was married.
Seems impossible now to imagine
how information needed to be accessed through sheer will
versus today
when you can plop down in front of a computer
and sit in a chair
casually drinking coffee
as you access the entire world
without burning one single calorie!
And the years speed by,
making the memories of my youth appear so simple and uncomplicated.
There is still one basic human function
which never changes.
Having children would be the one life experience
that connects us to our ancestors.
There is no 'more improved' way to experience a natural miracle.
We all are one, united in that moment
when Hashem grants us the gift of life.
Allowing us to feel a tiny moment of creation in it's essence.
How grateful I am for this awesomeness in my life.
Having children
and watching my children have children.
It leaves me trembling with gratitude.
Nothing compares...
I don't live near all my grandchildren so I don't get to hug and kiss them as much as I would like.
What I do instead is KNIT.
Each stitch represents a little kiss I string together
to create something they can wrap around themselves
as a substitute for a hug.
When my grandson was born I made a soft yummy blanket.



A hug from Bubby.
I love this pattern.
Now he is  a year older and needs a much bigger hug.


Now here's a lot of huggin!
I hope I can keep making hugs for many years 
for as many miracles as Hashem will grant me.












Friday, August 29, 2014

Just waiting...

“You will face your greatest opposition when you are closest to your biggest miracle.” 
― Shannon L. Alder

...And while I contemplate this quote I draw...


and draw...


 and draw...



and BTW
Tzviky
I'm working on the scarf you asked me to make for you.
You're going to wear it
IN GOOD HEALTH
till 120!

Wednesday, August 6, 2014

Lemonade out of lemons...

"Life handed him a lemon,
As Life sometimes will do.
His friends looked on in pity,
Assuming he was through.
They came upon him later,
Reclining in the shade
In calm contentment, drinking
A glass of lemonade."


G-d knows we all get our share of lemons.

If everything was sweet 

What challenges would we have?

Where would our self esteem come from?
There is no greater feeling than 'I did it myself".
The harder the challenge 
the greater the feeling of accomplishment.
One of the ways I train myself is through art.
When I start a project I usually have no idea where I'm going with it.
Most of the time I'm satisfied with the results.
Not ecstatic but satisfied.
But I never give up on it.
Even when I think It's a wash
I try to make it work.
This last one took many hours.
At the end I wasn't crazy about it.
So I cut it into squares and VOILA!
A piece of unexpected art.
I particularly love the way the frame slowly 'appeared'.
Now I love this piece.






Bottom line is YOU GOTTA MAKE IT WORK!

Thursday, July 31, 2014

I knew I was on to something good!



Yesterday's Wall Street Journal!
I knew I was on to something.
Now it's confirmed.
After all it's the WSJ!
Anyone that knows me can agree I could use improvement in my Focus and Memory.
Here's confirmation  I'm going in the right direction.
My latest Zentangle is a first of a kind for me.
It's really large.
19x24


I loved every second of the many hours it took to complete.


Let's see what this does for the memory !



Tuesday, July 22, 2014

All or nothing!

Bill Maher said it brilliantly here.
What resonated with me is that he said
Israel always wins.
WHY?
Because they have NO CHOICE.
They either win all or lose all.
Isn't that brilliant as a metaphor for life?
We make commitments easily
and then change our mind
and want to bow out.
If we KNEW when we commit
that it's 100% or nothing
how much stronger and more successful
would we all be
in all we undertake...